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The visit to SIDH and the Jeevan Vidya Shivir in particular have been one of the best things that could happen to me .. besides innumerous remembrances .. we gained something which would pave our way towards being one amongst the illuminati.
The Shivir, it was like… “wow, where was I before”... It was awesome, not because it made one happy, satisfied and in content with himself… rather I was left in a state of utter confusion and distress. Accompanied by a belief that following the new found path one day, I might be a little more closer, to my greater self realization.

Earlier never once did relationships, challenges or life situations ever bother me, but it was neither that I had a sound understanding of them. I was a firm believer and follower of the saying, “Ignorance is Bliss” and yes, I was in a state of bliss. “Door raho bache raho”. My “I ” had deemed everything it did to be correct and righteous and harmony at all six levels was the last thing it ever thought of.

Then the Shivir happened to fall by … and whatever that “I ” had thought was good was gone. Donno what to say…all that I conjectured from it was “all these days(19yrs) I had been slogging through the pages of my life”. Ignorance no longer seemed a bliss. As Sid had earlier said, the changes were subtle, but their consequences were apparently visible. All that I was left with was a desperate urge to be back in that state of bliss again, but this time, wouldn’t be as ignorant.

Back at home and well inside our comfort zones I tried to be as aware as I was there at SIDH .. sharing my experiences with friends seemed to be a good option…the very next day, I bombarded them with an hour long lecture on the “Natural Acceptance Process..NAP”..and they literally had a nap then ..It was more like a prescription to a patient .. than a proposal to an intellect. When I ended up,all were silent one amongst them said, “suvansh has gone eccentric” ..and yup..rather unwillingly I had to share a laughter with them... All I wanted to put forth is that, for me...the consequences of what I learnt back there and applied them in my life..ofcourse..as things surfaced out… have been a series of very mixed experiences.

To get things back on the road, it would be great if we have a dialogue or a brief(by the experienced likes of.. Raj, Shriram, Mridu di, Ankit..or anybody who feels concerned).. on how to judge that whether the work that we do(our carriers and all) is in harmony at all the six levels … or in short… the futility of work that we do or intend to do.

PS:…Sincerest apologies for writing this entry using too many ‘Is’ and ‘mys’ ..Suvansh’s I is not very good at it ..but as this was about him and by him, not much care could be taken in this respect.. plz ignore the spelling mistakes and the grammatical errors.

Thank you Amitabh … for that very provoking P.S …something I myself believe is true..and my long lost habit of blogging which had a reincarnation on this solemn platform.

Suvansh Lal
suvansh_lal@daiict.ac.in